This morning, I made the conscious decision to just not go to church today.  For those of you who know how uncharacteristic of me that is—pick up your jaw now and let me explain myself, ha!  You see, I was originally on vacation this weekend, but to make a long story short—well… sometimes your phone rings with news from home, so you pack your bags and you come back early.  And that’s okay.  While I wish the circumstances were different, I wouldn’t have been anywhere else.  But today, I opted to spend the morning with the Lord on my own.  Don’t get me wrong—I’m not advocating for making a habit of skipping church.  There’s something irreplaceable about being in solid fellowship and corporate worship with other believers.

I love when the house gets as quiet as it did after everyone left out for church.  Sure makes it a lot easier to get still, and unless I’m still I often miss what the Lord is trying to tell me.  Today, I didn’t miss it!  He had orchestrated everything about my morning to be moments of confirmation and clarification and I think I may have gotten it this time.

Normally, after the time of learning like I had this morning, a new post would soon follow.  That’s when I remembered it’s been over a week since I’ve posted anything.  Some of you have tried to let me not forget that, ha!  For that, I’m grateful for multiple reasons.   Mainly, it means you’re reading this and gaining something from it.  🙂

Here’s the thing though—I can’t figure out how to formulate my most recent thoughts, experiences, etc. into sentences that are both complete and coherent.  Just know that, while I did receive a lot of clear answers this morning, I’m still struggling these days.  Don’t get me wrong– I’m learning a lot through all of this!  I know God’s bound to be preparing me for something that I’m probably going to think is a really big deal!  He is drawing my heart in ways that I can’t explain.  It’s just that life is messy.  When I can figure out how to give you a glimpse into all of that without being so vague—I’ll let you know.

I’m sure you’re probably thinking “there’s no reason to post when there’s nothing to say”.  It’s part of me admitting that I’m not perfect, I don’t always have it together.  Plus, I guess I just figured those of you who keep asking me what the deal is with not having a new blog post in over a week deserved some sort of “explanation”.    So, there you have it.

Stay tuned…