I don’t really like to be scared.  It’s not an emotion that I tend to go seeking out.  Several of my friends enjoy a scary movie more than I enjoy a romantic comedy and I’m a sucker for a romantic comedy!  I can’t stand a scary movie.  I love Busch Gardens but have never wanted to go during Howl O’ Scream.  Not really a Halloween fan—where’s the fun in ghosts, witches, and monsters?!?  I love the beach but please don’t ask me to go too far into the ocean; I like for my feet to be able to touch the bottom if I want them to.  I enjoy a good roller coaster, but only if it’s not the kind where your feet are hanging when it flips you upside down.  My adventuresome spirit has limits. 

I like feeling safe.  There’s just something really comfortable about knowing that everything’s okay, all feels right in the world.  Maybe it’s a control issue, I don’t know.  Well, tonight, my devotion was built around the story of Peter walking on water to Jesus.  Poor Peter catches a lot of criticism for taking his eyes off Jesus.  I agree, not the best choice.  However, tonight, I was reminded that at least Peter got out of the boat!  I don’t know that I would have; it wouldn’t have been the safest choice.    

I was quickly reminded, while reading, of Narnia.  It’s one of my favorite Christian-themed movies.  There’s one moment when the children ask Mr. Beaver “Is he (Aslan) safe?”  Mr. Beaver is flabbergasted by the question, “Safe?!?  Who said anything about safe?!?  Of course he isn’t safe!  But he’s good!”

I’m convinced that Jesus Christ did not go to the cross to make me comfortable (safe if you will).  I’m certain that I’m supposed to do more than just be in the boat.  I’m not there yet!  God is approaching me in areas that I really wish He wouldn’t bring up.  He’s breaking me of the dreams I’ve always had that just don’t match His—His are better!  He’s asking me to move forward in something that I’ve never thought I’d step first in, so tonight I’m just in this place where I’m literally saying, “I’m willing to do this, Lord.  But I’m scared.”  And I think that’s okay.  It’s in my insecurity that He’s made known in really big ways!